Posted 6/6/2012 7:09 pm
Heard the news today that test results indicate it is unlikely I will be able to recover and I need to make a quick decision between going for a 1 in a million shot (but enduring a lot of suffering) or accepting fate and having maybe 3-4 more months of good quality living before I will most likely slowly slip away and physicians can make it relatively pain free.
Either way, the message was to get my affairs in order. I sold all my stocks today and have put my Hong Kong place on the market. Whatever I go for, i will relocate back to NYC to enjoy home as much as possible.
Follow up appoinment to make my decision and identify next steps is on friday. I've also set up a call with my lawyer in NYC to make all necessary arrangements for my assets after I die.
I'm calm, because I'm in shock mostly. I never realized I could also be one of the veteran posters who'd drop off at some point due to the grim reaper appearing. A lot of thinking to be doing in the coming 48 hours...
Posted 6/6/2012 7:13 pm
I was expecting the karma responses. I don't blame you for telling me it's a bit late to develop a more balanced view on life. What can I say? I was wrong.
Just wanted to share the news. Maybe others will learn from it.
Are you going to do something exciting with the time you have left or are you going to hole up in that rat infested city and simply wait to die. Be honest.
I'm working on a list of things... visiting family and friends is one of them, for many it will be a farewell visit as I don't have much time.
I also still want to visit Alaska, don't ask me why, it's something I've wanted as a kid and never got around to.
Will probably spend some time setting up a foundation to give scholarships to poor kids who have what it takes to get a good education but lack the funds and probably come from a disadvantaged background, like myself.
Will set aside a considerable sum of money for inheritance, and rest for medical bills as well as just living. I do intend to do some crazy party things now i still can. At least one more cocaine high, perhaps some top notch hookers (porn stars, just so i have regrets during my last days) etc
But the list is evolving. I have limited time. I also want this time to think and talk with people.
