"It's not good news, honey." And then she told me. Yesterday afternoon. HIV diagnosis. I'm stilltrying to piece it all together. I'm not surprised. The past two years have basically been a one-man load-collecting contest, whereI tried to break my own records every time I felt horny (14 loads in one night stands as the personal best). Logically and sensibly, there is nothing surprising about this. But human reactions don't always follow logicand sense. And I'm stillshocked. And numb. And overwhelmed.
But not upset.
The doctor expected me to cry or whine or be upset. But it didn't happen. It hasn't happened yet. I don't know if it will. I don't know if this is a normal reaction. I've enjoyed reading these forums for a long time, and find something beautiful in the support that the poz community shows its newest members. Well...mynameisDanny. I am 24 years old. And I am the newest member.
Hey Dan. Welcum to thebrotherhood man! Good to see you got knocked up and impreganted with the bug finally. OINK. Alwaysup forre-charging recently pozzed holes with my strain. South of Boston Breeding PIG here.
Posted 12/3/2011 7:54 pm
I used to be outraged when the Christians called AIDS a disease from God punishing gays for their sinful ways, and be appalled at fag bashing and all the discrimination that the openly gay endured. Not any more. And our tax and healthcare dollars will get to pay for thier treatment. Yeah.
Posted 12/3/2011 7:57 pm
So what if you posted on that board about being a top and loving anal bottoms, and then gradually letting it slip that your bottoms are chicks. You then feign confusion at all the hissy fits from all the the posters, and keep on posting about all your hot hetero sex.
ive always been sort of a scruffy punkish guy, i grew up around artists, hippies, punks, vegans, weirdos, so my idea of cleanliness has always been a little skewed, i'm an obsessively neat guy when it comes to my living quarters, but i dont use deoderant and i dont use regular shampoos or anything like that when i wash, i like ripe man smells, and i like to smell like a guy, i think thats what started it all for me, when it comes to sex im a total raunch pig, licking clean a tops dirty asshole and crotch, pissy dried cum on nasty NASTY jocks mud sex, toilet cleaning with my tongue, licking boots clean, enemas, all of the raunch you can imagine (i dont even have a problem with full on scat pig play as long as the other guy is getting off on it).. but i think it started just from living sort of naturally and being at one with myself as a human being
I've licked sweaty bear armpits, drank piss, been paddled/smacked around, had my nipple chewed on until it bled (and then chewed some more), eaten sweaty (but otherwise clean) ass, and one time (just to try it) sucked off an uncut daddy who had let smegma build up under his foreskin. I almost threw up, and that made me 100% sure I would never do it again or try scat. However, he was verbal about it, and cleaning his nasty cock with my mouth was about the most degrading thing I have ever done, and that was hot. The degradation is why I am so willing to take a cock in my mouth after it has been up my ass (though I would never do it if I wasn't super clean, I can see why some bottoms would do it dirty).